Days Like This

Why do I feel so angry today?

Why, on this day, this evening?

I've watched enough television 

and have read enough to know that

most often when one feels anger, 

it's not anger at all one feels, 

it's fear.

Lately, I've become a total thanatophobic

and it's beginning to define my waking moments:

I'm afraid I'm going to die,

I'm afraid Angelica Pinkerton is going to die,

I'm not afraid Matt's going to die but

 I'm afraid death is on its way.

Maybe that's why I'm so angry.